Bubbly

Many said I look like intimidating and unfriendly which are not true. But thank you for these are my blind spots.

How we view ourselves is not usually others see us. I’m bubbly but I notice I have attitude not easy to understand even by my parents and siblings.

I am 30 years old, unemployed, diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at age 27 and single.

Many said how sorrowful my situation is. I was associate analyst of Maersk Line and at my prime peak of career but need to let go for prevalent acute exacerbation in MS.

I praised God I’m able to worked for more than 3 years when was diagnosed.

If LORD is willing I’ll return to work. I’m the eldest among my three siblings. Only one is studying among us and praise God 3 of us are college graduate in different fields. I still want to help my parents and to add sources of my medication.

If LORD is willing I’ll meet the only man He created just for me. Now must be wholehearted committed and focus to our God.

My God is real and alive.

I’m nothing without God.

I failed Him many times. All I have is from Him and for Him. All praises, glory and honor to God 

Restless in bed and sleepless through the night, I longed for my lover. I wanted him desperately. His absence was painful. So I got up, went out and roved the city, hunting through streets and down alleys. I wanted my lover in the worst way! I looked high and low, and didn’t find him. And then the night watchmen found me as they patrolled the darkened city. “Have you seen my dear lost love?” I asked. No sooner had I left them than I found him, found my dear lost love. I threw my arms around him and held him tight, wouldn’t let him go until I had him home again, safe at home beside the fire.

Song of Solomon 3:1‭-‬4 MSG

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