Though it’s painful my heart is still beating.
There’s still elements of opportunity and God is not yet finished to my story. Still I’m wasn’t able to do what He designed me to be.
“To have faith is to be sure of the things we hope for, to be certain of the things we cannot see. It was by their faith that people of ancient times won God’s approval. It is by faith that we understand that the universe was created by God’s word, so that what can be seen was made out of what cannot be seen. No one can please God without faith, for whoever comes to God must have faith that God exists and rewards those who seek him. It was faith that made Abraham obey when God called him to go out to a country which God had promised to give him. He left his own country without knowing where he was going. By faith he lived as a foreigner in the country that God had promised him. He lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who received the same promise from God. For Abraham was waiting for the city which God has designed and built, the city with permanent foundations. It was faith that made Abraham able to become a father, even though he was too old and Sarah herself could not have children. He trusted God to keep his promise. Though Abraham was practically dead, from this one man came as many descendants as there are stars in the sky, as many as the numberless grains of sand on the seashore.”
Hebrews 11:1-3, 6, 8-12 GNT
I am blessed to still wake up and face today.