I love to go to church even it takes to be tipsy. I always encounter question: “to go or not?” Going to church is the only place I go all by myself most of the time.

I felt a prisoner to myself if I listen to what I really feel. And what others say, “take a rest you have MS”. There’s another question that keeps knocking: “to be one man rule, unfiltered or choose whom to show it?”

Do not restrain the Holy Spirit; do not despise inspired messages. Put all things to the test: keep what is good and avoid every kind of evil.  May the God who gives us peace make you holy in every way and keep your whole being—spirit, soul, and body—free from every fault at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. He who calls you will do it, because he is faithful.

1 Thessalonians 5:19‭-‬24 GNT

This choices breaks me and only God knows, understand, accept, love and most of all can change me.

LORD only you can and I can’t.