There are times we say we’re okay. Though the truth is we’re not. To cry is never a weaknesses. Make up, hairstyle, clothes… Can never hide what we really feel even our smile can’t.

Don’t allow yourself be eaten with a lies that turned you to don’t know what’s the meaning of relationship. There are times you thought you’re in an intimate relationship but the truth it’s friendship.

It’s been more than blue topaz. Butterfly feeling still exist. Bitterness is not experienced. I remember everything, forget the pain and tears. As if nothing happened. I am happy I was left not because of MS. Praise God for the closed door. I must stop keep knocking on the door that is already closed and can never give me truth.

I choose not to ask for the real reason.

God loves me more than I deserve.