This was a long run and took years to got it.
Raged to be noticed and later on I realized it is meaningless to hunger for attention and not wise.
“O Lord, you have always been our home. Before you created the hills or brought the world into being, you were eternally God, and will be God forever. You tell us to return to what we were; you change us back to dust. A thousand years to you are like one day; they are like yesterday, already gone, like a short hour in the night. You carry us away like a flood; we last no longer than a dream. We are like weeds that sprout in the morning, that grow and burst into bloom, then dry up and die in the evening. You place our sins before you, our secret sins where you can see them. Our life is cut short by your anger; it fades away like a whisper. Seventy years is all we have— eighty years, if we are strong; yet all they bring us is trouble and sorrow; life is soon over, and we are gone. Teach us how short our life is, so that we may become wise.”
Psalm 90:1-6, 8-10, 12 GNT
Everything is meaningless without trusting, obeying and giving God all praises, honor and glory.